I Will Live Life My Own Way

Are you comparing yourself to others on social media?

Yeah, I do it too sometimes.
Probably more than I should.

Living as yourself, though.
That might actually be enough.

This is just me thinking out loud.
Nothing smart, nothing polished.

The Apple Tree Story

We don’t know when we’re gonna die.
Could be tomorrow.
Could be 50 years from now.
Most days, I act like I’ve got forever.

There’s that quote people like to mention.
Martin Luther supposedly said,
“Even if the world ends tomorrow, I’d still plant an apple tree today.”

When I first heard it, I honestly didn’t get it.
Like… why bother?

Why plant anything if it’s all gonna end anyway?

But the more I thought about it,
the more I felt like I was missing the point.

It’s not about whether the apple tree ever grows fruit.
It’s about choosing to plant it today.
Outcome aside.

Even if tomorrow never comes,
there’s still today.
And I still have to decide what to do with it.

That’s probaly closer to what life is.
At least for me.

The Feelings That Social Media Creates

Scrolling through social media,
everyone looks like they’ve figured it all out.

Good food.
Great trips.
Nice cars.

Sometimes it’s late at night,
I’m just sitting there scrolling,
and I catch myself thinking,
“Man, what am I even doing with my life?”

I feel jealous for a bit.
Then comes that weird pressure.
Like I should be doing all those things too.

To be honest, it kind of messes with your head.

Then one day it clicked.
Not in some dramatic way.
Just… slowly.

What people post is their highlight reel.
The best moments.
Cleaned up.
Filtered.

Comparing that to my random, average Tuesday?
Yeah, that was never fair.

When you really think about comparison,
it’s pretty simple.
You take someone else’s strengths
and stack them up against your weakest parts.

No surprise you end up feeling lousy.
It’s basicaly self-inflicted stress.

People are different.
Always have been.

Different genes.
Different backgrounds.
Different pace.

“Everyone else is doing it, so I should too”?
That’s… not much of a standard, honestly.

Sure, your friend might have things you don’t.
That’s easy to notice.
Especially now.

But you’ve got things they don’t have either.
We just don’t look at those as much.
Maybe we just get used to them.

Just Live As Yourself

Nietzsche talked about “amor fati.”
Loving your fate.

I’m not gonna pretend I fully get it.
I probably don’t.

I just think of it like this:
accept the life you’ve chosen.
Even if it’s a bit messy.
Even if it doesn’t look impressive.

Living as yourself isn’t some big statement.
It’s just making choices today
that you won’t beat yourself up over later.

How others live?
That’s their business.
I just need to live as me.

I can’t decide when my life ends.
That part’s out of my hands.

But today?
What I do today?
That’s still mine.

If the world ended tomorrow,
what would I be doing right now?

Honestly, I’m still figuring that out.

But one thing’s for sure.
Today, I’m just gonna keep living my way.